Lately, I have been feeling constantly busy. And thus, my number one goal is the removal of the busyness, ie. getting stuff knocked out. But getting “unbusy” is only short-term immediate relief, not necessary moving me closer to my design or purpose.
I thought it was wisdom to build the habit of saying “no” in order to stay productive. But the problem is, what I called “productive” wasn’t related to my ideal future but only my nagging present.
What we call “wisdom” can often be fear in disguise. It appears to wise because it is safe. It is the action, least likely to disturb others or bring harm. But living simply for the avoidance of failure or difficulty isn’t living at all.
This is the orphan in perpetual survival; who lives only for themselves, being their own savior, protector and sustainer. This is a scarcity mindset whereby we live not for the potential of greatness but for the absence of pain.
I have to constantly remind myself of my values and what I want. I want peace and I want to live in the center of my design. Peace comes from trust and trust come from communion. Living in my design is a choice that requires faith and faith (which is really trust) comes also from communion.
Earthly wisdom is the ability to predict and work around the winds and the waves… But Christian wisdom is keeping your eyes fixed on Jesus, ignoring or calming the storm and then walking on the water.
Selah.